This is gonna be a long post... Just to warn you.
Hmm... I guess it would be best to just pick up where I left off, eh?
Well, basically what happened was, I started hurting really badly again. I ended up getting really depressed, and turning into the bad monster known as Twinks Evil Twin. :::insert evil music here::: I was constantly lying to my parents, friends, and family. I was constantly hiding in my room, blaring loud music to drown out everything, even my own thoughts. I didn't talk to my parents much. It was the same routine everyday: Get up, go to school, come home, get on the internet, and go to bed. I wasn't even eating that much. I stopped doing my homework. My whole world revolved around the internet. Now, I'm not going to get into detail about what happened, that's personal, but let's just say that I lied big time to my parents for eight whole months... Now, if any of you have been with me since the beginning, you know that that's not like me. Normally I'm your straight A, truth-telling, goody-two-shoes. But I just got so caught up in the lie, I never knew how to get back out. So eventually, right before Christmas, I told my mom everything. I was, as expected, wayyyy grounded. But the feeling of getting that big lie off my chest was so worth telling the truth.
So, Christmas came around and things started feeling better. I started going to physical therapy, which helped with all my pain, and my mom and I started talking more, which helped with stopping the lies. I had an AWESOME Christmas. I got tons of cool gifts, which included an 80GB Zune. W00t!! And slowly, my parents started showing a little trust in me. But with that trust, came responsibility. But if doing a few extra chores every day makes my parents happy, I'll be more than happy to do them.
Ok, so the winter dance came around. I was supposed to go with my friend, J. But he ended up leaving me halfway through the dance for my other friend, C. But, I was ok with it. Yeah, a few tears were shed, but hey, I still had a great dance.
Not much has happened since then. My grades are (for the most part) back to their normal A status. I guess my life has been going pretty good.
I had my birthday. So, yeah, I'm like, 14 now. Ha, it feels weird saying that. In one year I'll be driving. (Where I live, they let you get your permit at 15 1/2.) My parents are definitely not ready for that.
One thing I have learned though, is that I don't need a guy to be happy. I thought that because all my friends had a boyfriend (or girlfriend) that I needed one too. But, after going through some of the stuff that's happened, I see now that boyfriends and girlfriends shouldn't be the most important things in my life right now. I should just worry about being happy, and being a kid while I still can be. Now, don't get me wrong... People like Flip and her boyfriend make me smile, just thinking about how happy they are together. But I just don't think that I'm ready for a guy to be following me around everywhere yet.
I'm so not ready to be a freshman next year. Because of some of the advanced classes I'll be taking, I'll be surrounded by Juniors and Seniors constantly. They scare me. o.o But, overall I should have a pretty good year next year. I'll be taking my second year of French (which is going quite well, btw), and I'll be taking an engineering course at the High School. (They split the High School in two. The Freshman and Sophomore in one building the "Mid-High", and the Juniors and Seniors in the other building, the "High School".) Kinda confusing, I know.
Well, I guess I've been getting kinda artsy lately. I've been writing poems everyday, and I've even been dabbling in photography. I know I'll never be as good as my mom, or Flip, but I think I'm... ok?
Well, nothing much has happened today. I'm kinda in a blah mood right now. Oh well.
So yeah, thats what you guys missed out on. I'm seriously going to try posting every day, if not every other day here. I've missed you guys sooo much!!
Much love to everyone,