Have you ever felt like the floor got pulled from underneath your feet, and all of a sudden, you're free-falling, with nowhere to go? That's exactly how i feel right now.
There's 8 days left of summer.
Just typing that sentence makes me sad with nostalgia and memories never made.
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And its true. I haven't done much this summer. Mostly sat around, watching movies, texting friends, etc. Sure, I've had a few friends over. But nothing...note-worthy. Nothing worth slapping in a scrapbook to look at twenty years from now. No inside jokes were created. No goofy pictures were taken. Nothing.
And now with my sophomore year not-so-slowly creeping up on me, I'm starting to realize that I'm not going back to "normal school" this year. I'll be doing virtual school. Which is basically me sitting at a computer for six hours every day, doing my classwork. But then what? After I'm finished with all my work for the day, what am I to do? I mean, yes, the obvious things, like reading books for fun, playing video games, etc. But without that social connection every day with my friends, I'm worried I'll become disconnected.
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It happened last time we did something like this. In the fifth grade, many health issues started to crop up, so mom decided to pull me out and home school me. It was fun at first, sure. I got all my work done by noon, and I had the rest of the day off. But after a few months, i started to miss all my friends. I started to miss seeing them every day. And I started to slowly become more and more depressed.
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I guess I'm just worried that will happen again. I know that since fifth grade, I've made tons of new friends, who would all love to come hang out. But I also know that without seeing someone every day, without that physical contact with the person, that constant reminder of their existence, they will soon be forgotten. Its not their fault. Its just part of who we are as humans.
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So I guess I'm just worried. And confused. And half a hundred other emotions. Blah. I hate being a teenager sometimes.
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Oh well.
Everyone here at the house is doing well. Grandma is... well shes just being Grandma. Little things have started to change. Like last night, when she went to bed, she completely ignored me. She's said goodnight to me, every night for the past 2 1/2 years. But last night she acted like I wasn't there. Like she didn't even remember who i was. I don't know whether I cried over the fact that she forgot about me, or that I'm realizing that we're loosing her faster than we thought.
So here's my goal: Make the next 8 days, some of the best, most memorable summer days ever. Maybe if I go out with a bang, I won't be as easily forgotten.
More Later,
Twinks
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
this is the most i've written in a long time.
I've been sitting here for the past five minutes trying to come up with some witty, fresh opening line for this post. So far: nothing. Ahh well. I've never been good at being "witty" per se.
I know, I know. I said I would post alot this summer. But as the days dragged on, I found I had nothing to post about.
I mean, sure, I could gripe about how I haven't gotten to see my friends. Or how there are days when my grandmother just drives me insane with grief. But I find those ramblings to be quite boring. And I don't want to bore my readers. So I've just decided to simmer within my own thoughts and post when I felt it necessary. Which, it appears, is now.
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Nothing big happened recently. I didn't go through some "life-changing event that left me floored," or something like that. I've just slowly realized that things have changed. Some very very important things in my life have changed and I feel the urge to write about it. So I'll write to you.
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Recently, my grandmother has declined greatly. And its obvious to everyone that she's not going to get better.
I mean, yes, she has her "good days" and her "bad days." But when it comes down to it, I can tell that she's worse than ever. Her ability to "cover up" her lack of social skills is now failing. An example: tonight, my friend came over to hang out. While he was eating dinner with me, mom, and grandma, he told us about how he moved here from [insert state name here]. He talked about how it was much nicer here than it was in [insert state name here]. If you looked at grandma, you could just tell she was desperate to be a part of the conversation. But instead of saying some "cover up" like, "Oh, well yes, it is very nice here!" she blurted out in an odd voice, "Did you have to say yes ma'am, and no ma'am?" Not only was I embarrassed that my friend had to see her like that, I was also mortified that she had gotten that bad at conversing. It scared me more than anything to realize how truly close we are to losing her.
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There are days when she frustrates me so much, I want to scream. But then there are times, like tonight, when I just want to cry. I want her to snap out of it. I want my old grandma back. The one I remember from when I was little. I miss her so much...
Me and mom and dad have been good lately. I've been trying to work at being an all-around better daughter, and helping them as much as possible.
School is starting in four weeks, and I'm not near ready. I'm supposed to be enrolled in virtual school. Which is like taking my classes on the internet. But so far the school isn't even sure if they're going to go through with it. Which is really stressing me out. I need virtual school. More than ever.
My friends and I are all good. No drama, thankfully. :] Being friends with all older kids is much nicer. Plus, its fun to be the little sister. :]
I've just concluded that boys are stupid. No offense if you are one. But they are. They're immature, senseless little buttfaces. Like I said, no offense.
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I dated a boy over the summer from my math class. We were friends, but we both didn't really know each other, which ended up being the demise of our relationship. Great kid, just bad circumstances.
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Current problem I'm dealing with is the fact that I've basically fallen for my best friend. Which is the worst thing that could ever happen to a girl. Ever. He's like a brother to me. He protects me, takes care of me, makes sure no harm could ever come to me. He's the funniest, most caring guy you could ever meet. We're each other's best friends. He calls me "lil sis." Too bad I'm also best friends with his girlfriend. Who he plans to marry. :/ Ahh well. I can deal. I have before. I'm just glad I'm lucky enough to be so close to him.
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You're prolly wondering if he knows how I feel. he does. He figured it all out before I did, to tell you the truth. Thankfully, he just finds it cute and funny. I dunno if that's a good thing or not. Either way, I'm just glad hes not all freaked out by it. He's smart enough to know that I would never come between him and his gf. And I wouldn't. The way his face lights up when he sees her, I just know he's in love. And that's all I've ever wanted for him. To be happy. To find love. I would never ever think of coming between those two.
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Ironically enough, a few days ago he asked me to be the best man at his wedding. (whether he marries this girl or not) I happily said yes. As long as i got to wear a tux with a purple bowtie. :]
So things have been kind of confusing for me lately. What with the best friend thing, and grandma going downhill so fast. There are days when I honestly don't want to wake up. I just want to sleep through everything and wait till its all over with.
Well I guess that's about all I have to say. My summer's been ok so far. Nothing note-worthy. Just general hanging out and such.
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This is the most I've written in a very long time. And it feels good. :]
Hope everyone's doing well. Sorry that I haven't been able to read blogs in a while. I'm really out of the loop. Ahh well.
Oh, and a little side note, you should really check out this kid, Christofer Drew, aka, NeverShoutNever. He's amazing. No lie. :] Some of the best music I've heard in ages.
More later.
lots of love,
Twinks ;]
I know, I know. I said I would post alot this summer. But as the days dragged on, I found I had nothing to post about.
I mean, sure, I could gripe about how I haven't gotten to see my friends. Or how there are days when my grandmother just drives me insane with grief. But I find those ramblings to be quite boring. And I don't want to bore my readers. So I've just decided to simmer within my own thoughts and post when I felt it necessary. Which, it appears, is now.
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Nothing big happened recently. I didn't go through some "life-changing event that left me floored," or something like that. I've just slowly realized that things have changed. Some very very important things in my life have changed and I feel the urge to write about it. So I'll write to you.
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Recently, my grandmother has declined greatly. And its obvious to everyone that she's not going to get better.
I mean, yes, she has her "good days" and her "bad days." But when it comes down to it, I can tell that she's worse than ever. Her ability to "cover up" her lack of social skills is now failing. An example: tonight, my friend came over to hang out. While he was eating dinner with me, mom, and grandma, he told us about how he moved here from [insert state name here]. He talked about how it was much nicer here than it was in [insert state name here]. If you looked at grandma, you could just tell she was desperate to be a part of the conversation. But instead of saying some "cover up" like, "Oh, well yes, it is very nice here!" she blurted out in an odd voice, "Did you have to say yes ma'am, and no ma'am?" Not only was I embarrassed that my friend had to see her like that, I was also mortified that she had gotten that bad at conversing. It scared me more than anything to realize how truly close we are to losing her.
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There are days when she frustrates me so much, I want to scream. But then there are times, like tonight, when I just want to cry. I want her to snap out of it. I want my old grandma back. The one I remember from when I was little. I miss her so much...
Me and mom and dad have been good lately. I've been trying to work at being an all-around better daughter, and helping them as much as possible.
School is starting in four weeks, and I'm not near ready. I'm supposed to be enrolled in virtual school. Which is like taking my classes on the internet. But so far the school isn't even sure if they're going to go through with it. Which is really stressing me out. I need virtual school. More than ever.
My friends and I are all good. No drama, thankfully. :] Being friends with all older kids is much nicer. Plus, its fun to be the little sister. :]
I've just concluded that boys are stupid. No offense if you are one. But they are. They're immature, senseless little buttfaces. Like I said, no offense.
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I dated a boy over the summer from my math class. We were friends, but we both didn't really know each other, which ended up being the demise of our relationship. Great kid, just bad circumstances.
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Current problem I'm dealing with is the fact that I've basically fallen for my best friend. Which is the worst thing that could ever happen to a girl. Ever. He's like a brother to me. He protects me, takes care of me, makes sure no harm could ever come to me. He's the funniest, most caring guy you could ever meet. We're each other's best friends. He calls me "lil sis." Too bad I'm also best friends with his girlfriend. Who he plans to marry. :/ Ahh well. I can deal. I have before. I'm just glad I'm lucky enough to be so close to him.
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You're prolly wondering if he knows how I feel. he does. He figured it all out before I did, to tell you the truth. Thankfully, he just finds it cute and funny. I dunno if that's a good thing or not. Either way, I'm just glad hes not all freaked out by it. He's smart enough to know that I would never come between him and his gf. And I wouldn't. The way his face lights up when he sees her, I just know he's in love. And that's all I've ever wanted for him. To be happy. To find love. I would never ever think of coming between those two.
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Ironically enough, a few days ago he asked me to be the best man at his wedding. (whether he marries this girl or not) I happily said yes. As long as i got to wear a tux with a purple bowtie. :]
So things have been kind of confusing for me lately. What with the best friend thing, and grandma going downhill so fast. There are days when I honestly don't want to wake up. I just want to sleep through everything and wait till its all over with.
Well I guess that's about all I have to say. My summer's been ok so far. Nothing note-worthy. Just general hanging out and such.
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This is the most I've written in a very long time. And it feels good. :]
Hope everyone's doing well. Sorry that I haven't been able to read blogs in a while. I'm really out of the loop. Ahh well.
Oh, and a little side note, you should really check out this kid, Christofer Drew, aka, NeverShoutNever. He's amazing. No lie. :] Some of the best music I've heard in ages.
More later.
lots of love,
Twinks ;]
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Long time no... Post?
Currently: Sitting in my kitchen, texting my friends, listening to All Time Low, and writing a blog post.
Sooo.... Long time no see!
Sorry for not posting in forever... I've had so much stuff on my plate it's not even laughable. Between my friends, my boyfriend issues, my family, and my school, I haven't had time to relax, let alone write a post.
I've tried writing this post about 50 times or so now. Every time I either get fed up and delete it, or I save it in some random folder I can't find later.
I'll recap whats happened in the simplest possible ways. Please try and ignore my teenage stupidity, which has reared its ugly head quite often in the past few months.
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So, lets start with the friends issue.
Well, as many of you read on my mom's blog, one of my very best friends passed away. It's still something I have to get through every day. He was one of the most amazing kid's I've ever met. He was like my brother. I still think about him constantly. I miss him sooo much.
I thought things were going well with my friends. I knew that my group of friends had issues. I mean, big issues. But i figured I could look past that and try to just be a good friend.
I recently found out that many of these so-called "friends" were talking crap about me behind my back. They were saying that they wanted me kicked out of our group. So, I quietly and gracefully left the group. I'm now hanging out with a completely different group of kids who love me, and appreciate me. They don't talk crap about me behind my back. If they have something to say about me, they say it to my face.
So, yeah... I just felt really lost and confused for a while. I went from being best friends with these kids I had known for years, to being a complete stranger.
Okay, now onto the boyfriend issue.
Basically I dated this kid who was one of my best friends. Bad freaking idea. He was way too preoccupied with his ex girlfriend [so much so that he cheated on me with her]. But that's neither here nor there. We don't really talk anymore, which kinda sucks. But I've moved on.
My family.
Umm. Well... Alot of stuff has been going on. My grandmother is just plain confusing nowadays. Some days she seems absolutely normal, while others its like taking care of a little kid. I really don't know what to do anymore. I constantly feel pressure to be a good grandkid, but its hard sometimes. Ok, its hard most of the time. I get frustrated because I feel like things aren't ever gonna be the same. I guess I never really came to terms with the fact that she's not just gonna magically change back to the way she used to be. I wish she would tho.
Me and my dad seem to be growing further apart each day, and its killing me. I know he's stressed from work, and grandma, and taxes, and all the adult stuff like that, but I just wish it could go back to the way it used to be. When we'd spend a bunch of time together and stuff... I don't know anymore.
Me and mom are okay I guess. I've been a crappy daughter lately, tho, so I'm afraid I'm loosing her too. I just feel like I'm pushing every body I love away. I can't control it.
My School
Basically I've been a horrible student this year. I've gone from an A++ student to barely making C's. I really regret what I did this year. Basically I just stopped doing my homework all together. I really don't know why. Teenage rebellion maybe? I don't know. I just wish I hadn't messed up so bad. I may not be able to get into my dream college because of what I did this year, and I'm really freaking out about it.
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So there's an update to my life. There's alot of little stuff in between I didn't mention, but I'm sure it'll all come out eventually.
Right now I've got finals this week. I'm seriously stressing about them too. These tests could make or break my grades. And my chances of getting into my dream college.
I get out of school next week. I'm really excited about that. No more waking up at 5am, no more homework, no more stressful teachers! Woohoo! :D
So I'm gonna learn how to skate. Like on a skateboard. Haha, it's gonna be awesome! My junior friend D is gonna teach me on Thursday. It also helps that he's amazingly cute. lol
I've really been into writing more poetry lately. And alot of photography too. I guess it's just a creative streak or something.
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Wow... I actually finished the post. I'm quite proud of myself. :]
Well, not much else to report. I'll probably be posting more this summer, just as a head's up.
Just wanted to say thank you and I love you to all of my blogger friends who have stayed with me through all this. I really do appreciate you guys. :]
Okay, well I better get going.
More later-
Twinks
Sooo.... Long time no see!
Sorry for not posting in forever... I've had so much stuff on my plate it's not even laughable. Between my friends, my boyfriend issues, my family, and my school, I haven't had time to relax, let alone write a post.
I've tried writing this post about 50 times or so now. Every time I either get fed up and delete it, or I save it in some random folder I can't find later.
I'll recap whats happened in the simplest possible ways. Please try and ignore my teenage stupidity, which has reared its ugly head quite often in the past few months.
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So, lets start with the friends issue.
Well, as many of you read on my mom's blog, one of my very best friends passed away. It's still something I have to get through every day. He was one of the most amazing kid's I've ever met. He was like my brother. I still think about him constantly. I miss him sooo much.
I thought things were going well with my friends. I knew that my group of friends had issues. I mean, big issues. But i figured I could look past that and try to just be a good friend.
I recently found out that many of these so-called "friends" were talking crap about me behind my back. They were saying that they wanted me kicked out of our group. So, I quietly and gracefully left the group. I'm now hanging out with a completely different group of kids who love me, and appreciate me. They don't talk crap about me behind my back. If they have something to say about me, they say it to my face.
So, yeah... I just felt really lost and confused for a while. I went from being best friends with these kids I had known for years, to being a complete stranger.
Okay, now onto the boyfriend issue.
Basically I dated this kid who was one of my best friends. Bad freaking idea. He was way too preoccupied with his ex girlfriend [so much so that he cheated on me with her]. But that's neither here nor there. We don't really talk anymore, which kinda sucks. But I've moved on.
My family.
Umm. Well... Alot of stuff has been going on. My grandmother is just plain confusing nowadays. Some days she seems absolutely normal, while others its like taking care of a little kid. I really don't know what to do anymore. I constantly feel pressure to be a good grandkid, but its hard sometimes. Ok, its hard most of the time. I get frustrated because I feel like things aren't ever gonna be the same. I guess I never really came to terms with the fact that she's not just gonna magically change back to the way she used to be. I wish she would tho.
Me and my dad seem to be growing further apart each day, and its killing me. I know he's stressed from work, and grandma, and taxes, and all the adult stuff like that, but I just wish it could go back to the way it used to be. When we'd spend a bunch of time together and stuff... I don't know anymore.
Me and mom are okay I guess. I've been a crappy daughter lately, tho, so I'm afraid I'm loosing her too. I just feel like I'm pushing every body I love away. I can't control it.
My School
Basically I've been a horrible student this year. I've gone from an A++ student to barely making C's. I really regret what I did this year. Basically I just stopped doing my homework all together. I really don't know why. Teenage rebellion maybe? I don't know. I just wish I hadn't messed up so bad. I may not be able to get into my dream college because of what I did this year, and I'm really freaking out about it.
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So there's an update to my life. There's alot of little stuff in between I didn't mention, but I'm sure it'll all come out eventually.
Right now I've got finals this week. I'm seriously stressing about them too. These tests could make or break my grades. And my chances of getting into my dream college.
I get out of school next week. I'm really excited about that. No more waking up at 5am, no more homework, no more stressful teachers! Woohoo! :D
So I'm gonna learn how to skate. Like on a skateboard. Haha, it's gonna be awesome! My junior friend D is gonna teach me on Thursday. It also helps that he's amazingly cute. lol
I've really been into writing more poetry lately. And alot of photography too. I guess it's just a creative streak or something.
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Wow... I actually finished the post. I'm quite proud of myself. :]
Well, not much else to report. I'll probably be posting more this summer, just as a head's up.
Just wanted to say thank you and I love you to all of my blogger friends who have stayed with me through all this. I really do appreciate you guys. :]
Okay, well I better get going.
More later-
Twinks
Monday, March 16, 2009
Taking a Break...
Hi.
This is Twink's Mom. She asked me to stop by here, and post this little update.
Twinks won't be posting for a while. It's mostly because she has lost a very dear and special RL friend, but it's also because she is having a lot of health problems right now too.
So, she is going to take a little break.
She will be back; she just needs some time, and some healing.
Thanks for your understanding.
This is Twink's Mom. She asked me to stop by here, and post this little update.
Twinks won't be posting for a while. It's mostly because she has lost a very dear and special RL friend, but it's also because she is having a lot of health problems right now too.
So, she is going to take a little break.
She will be back; she just needs some time, and some healing.
Thanks for your understanding.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Broken Hearts, Sad Faces
Well, I'm back...
...From my trip to break-upville.
Population: me
*sighs* Yep, you guessed it. Me and the wonderful, amazing, loving boyfriend broke up. Four days after our 4 month anniversary.
I won't go into detail... But basically he was just very very immature and manipulative. He wasn't being that way on purpose... He just wasn't ready for a serious relationship yet.
I'm not here to badmouth him, though. He was, and still is, a great guy. He's an amazing person, and I'll always treasure our time together. I was in love with him, and I still partially am. But the timing just wasn't right.
I've had alot of people ask me if I was going to go out with my best friend, T, after me and the EXBF broke up. I really don't wanna date anyone right now. I'm still trying to get over the EXBF, so it wouldn't be fair to date someone right now. Besides... *sad smile* ...T doesn't like me that way. Well, ok, I take that back. He does, but hes also three years older than me, and he says the age difference is just too weird for him. He said maybe next year... It sucks, but thats just how the cookie crumbles, right?
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On another note... I made my first B on a report card! Actually, my first three B's! Aren't you proud of me?
Don't worry... I was already lectured by my parents. I was under alot of stress and pressure from the EXBF and from my friends. But that's all fixed now. We're two weeks into the second semester and I've got high A's in all my classes.
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Well, stuff with my friends is going surprisingly well. There has been alot less drama this year, which makes me happy. I don't like it when my friends fight. But, I guess I never told y'all. I'm not really hanging out with the same people anymore. I am, technically, still part of the same clique. But ever since I met T this year (he's a Junior) I've been hanging out with him and his friends alot more often. Like all the time. Which doesn't really bother me, since his friends are all cute Junior boys. *insert devious smile here* So, yeah, I guess it's nice being the only girl in a group full of cute older boys. Especially when they can all drive. *giggles*
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I've been having some pain issues lately. I keep getting this sensation in my legs like someone is taking a steak knife and running down the middle of my legs. It starts at my hips and raidiates down to my feet. The neurologist put me on some pain meds that are supposed to help, but so far, nothings changed.
I've also got some freaky stuff going on with my feet. Both my pinkie toes started curling up and under. So far we dont really know why, but I'm going to see a podiatrist soon.
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Other than that, everything has been going ok for me. I've been out of school the past two days cause I caught some icky infection. I had a fever and a really bad cough, but mom says the meds the doctor gave me should have me back to school tomorrow.
I'll try to post more often, but don't get angry if I'm gone for more than a few weeks. I still read everyone's blogs on a daily basis, I've just been too busy to comment and post on my own blog. Sorry... being a teenager just kinda sucks sometimes. :/
More later,
Twinks ;]
...From my trip to break-upville.
Population: me
*sighs* Yep, you guessed it. Me and the wonderful, amazing, loving boyfriend broke up. Four days after our 4 month anniversary.
I won't go into detail... But basically he was just very very immature and manipulative. He wasn't being that way on purpose... He just wasn't ready for a serious relationship yet.
I'm not here to badmouth him, though. He was, and still is, a great guy. He's an amazing person, and I'll always treasure our time together. I was in love with him, and I still partially am. But the timing just wasn't right.
I've had alot of people ask me if I was going to go out with my best friend, T, after me and the EXBF broke up. I really don't wanna date anyone right now. I'm still trying to get over the EXBF, so it wouldn't be fair to date someone right now. Besides... *sad smile* ...T doesn't like me that way. Well, ok, I take that back. He does, but hes also three years older than me, and he says the age difference is just too weird for him. He said maybe next year... It sucks, but thats just how the cookie crumbles, right?
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On another note... I made my first B on a report card! Actually, my first three B's! Aren't you proud of me?
Don't worry... I was already lectured by my parents. I was under alot of stress and pressure from the EXBF and from my friends. But that's all fixed now. We're two weeks into the second semester and I've got high A's in all my classes.
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Well, stuff with my friends is going surprisingly well. There has been alot less drama this year, which makes me happy. I don't like it when my friends fight. But, I guess I never told y'all. I'm not really hanging out with the same people anymore. I am, technically, still part of the same clique. But ever since I met T this year (he's a Junior) I've been hanging out with him and his friends alot more often. Like all the time. Which doesn't really bother me, since his friends are all cute Junior boys. *insert devious smile here* So, yeah, I guess it's nice being the only girl in a group full of cute older boys. Especially when they can all drive. *giggles*
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I've been having some pain issues lately. I keep getting this sensation in my legs like someone is taking a steak knife and running down the middle of my legs. It starts at my hips and raidiates down to my feet. The neurologist put me on some pain meds that are supposed to help, but so far, nothings changed.
I've also got some freaky stuff going on with my feet. Both my pinkie toes started curling up and under. So far we dont really know why, but I'm going to see a podiatrist soon.
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Other than that, everything has been going ok for me. I've been out of school the past two days cause I caught some icky infection. I had a fever and a really bad cough, but mom says the meds the doctor gave me should have me back to school tomorrow.
I'll try to post more often, but don't get angry if I'm gone for more than a few weeks. I still read everyone's blogs on a daily basis, I've just been too busy to comment and post on my own blog. Sorry... being a teenager just kinda sucks sometimes. :/
More later,
Twinks ;]
Thursday, November 20, 2008
The Post With No Title...
I'm not feeling particularly creative today... Sorry.
I also apologize for not posting in a long long time. I realized how long it had really been when I got put on Sully's bad list...
Alot has happened in the past month(s) or so...
The boyfriend and I are still going strong. Our 2 month anniversary was last weekend! He (finally) told me he loves me. :::insert "Ooh's" and "Awe's" and "How Cute's" here::: Do I think it was too soon for him to say that? Quite honestly, no. Now, I'm not saying that because "We're in love and nothing anyone can say will keep us apart!" I say that because I feel like I've made a real connection with him. He's got the perfect personality for me, and he honestly cares about me. He's the kind of guy that gives you 150%, all day, every day.
But, enough about him. Stuff's been going good at the house. Dad's been working day shifts for a while at work, instead of his usual night shifts. It was a tough change for all of us to make, especially since he drove me to school every morning. But we've all adapted. Mom seems to be ok. I know that she never fully tells me how bad she feels, or how tough things are getting, but I don't hold that against her. She's trying to juggle the weight of our family's world on her shoulders, and thats a pretty hard task, if you ask me. Grandma has her good days and her bad days. I really don't know what to say about her anymore. She's just so different. I still can't bring myself to realize that she's not coming back...
School has been... rocky. I had a little dip in my grades right after my BF and I started dating, but now things have stabilized, and I've brought all my grades back up! (except math, which I'm currently working on very hard...)
Stuff with my friends has been... usual. Not as much drama as last year (thankfully), just alot of stuff going on all at once.
Tonight I'm going to a poetry club meeting. My FIRST poetry club meeting. EVER. So, yeah, I'm just a little scared. Especially since I'll be the only freshman there with a bunch of Junior's and Senior's. On top of that I only know one person there. He's an upperclassman - "Cool Hair Guy" as we all call him. His hair is almost as amazing as mine. LOL.
Overall, things have been going well. Not much bad news to report here.
Well, now that I think about it... I've been having a lot of pain in my ankle and foot (as mentioned up above) and I've been having shooting pains up and down my legs and hips. One of my specialists here says I'm going to have to have some more tests done :( and I'll probably have to go back down to Hospital City sometime in the next few months... I just hope it stops soon. I can't handle pain like this on top of everything else... I think I need another Pain Management session!!!
Well, I guess that's it. I got to see the new James Bond movie last Sunday with the BF, my aunt, and my grandpa. I liked it a lot, except for the fact that the theater was freezing and I had no jacket. Haha.
I'll try to start posting more often. Sorry, again for being gone so long.
More later,
Twinks
PS - I highly reccomned you check out The Sword. Well, the BF does. They're apparently touring with Metallica (which the BF just recently saw in concert) and in his words "They Kick Butt!! They're like a metal/rock version of Stone Temple Pilots." So, there ya go. Your daily dose of music. :)
I also apologize for not posting in a long long time. I realized how long it had really been when I got put on Sully's bad list...
Alot has happened in the past month(s) or so...
The boyfriend and I are still going strong. Our 2 month anniversary was last weekend! He (finally) told me he loves me. :::insert "Ooh's" and "Awe's" and "How Cute's" here::: Do I think it was too soon for him to say that? Quite honestly, no. Now, I'm not saying that because "We're in love and nothing anyone can say will keep us apart!" I say that because I feel like I've made a real connection with him. He's got the perfect personality for me, and he honestly cares about me. He's the kind of guy that gives you 150%, all day, every day.
This is an example: My ankle and foot started hurting the other day during our date. After a several painful winces from me, he asked me what was wrong. I, trying to keep our date going happily, just told him that my ankle was hurting a little bit. (when in reality it was killing me) He then went on to prop my foot up on his lap and give me a foot/ankle rub for 30 minutes.
Everyday he asks me if I'm feeling any better, and he's there for me, no matter how upset or angry I get. He's got my back no matter what. And, if/when we do break up, I know we'll remain good friends.But, enough about him. Stuff's been going good at the house. Dad's been working day shifts for a while at work, instead of his usual night shifts. It was a tough change for all of us to make, especially since he drove me to school every morning. But we've all adapted. Mom seems to be ok. I know that she never fully tells me how bad she feels, or how tough things are getting, but I don't hold that against her. She's trying to juggle the weight of our family's world on her shoulders, and thats a pretty hard task, if you ask me. Grandma has her good days and her bad days. I really don't know what to say about her anymore. She's just so different. I still can't bring myself to realize that she's not coming back...
School has been... rocky. I had a little dip in my grades right after my BF and I started dating, but now things have stabilized, and I've brought all my grades back up! (except math, which I'm currently working on very hard...)
Stuff with my friends has been... usual. Not as much drama as last year (thankfully), just alot of stuff going on all at once.
Tonight I'm going to a poetry club meeting. My FIRST poetry club meeting. EVER. So, yeah, I'm just a little scared. Especially since I'll be the only freshman there with a bunch of Junior's and Senior's. On top of that I only know one person there. He's an upperclassman - "Cool Hair Guy" as we all call him. His hair is almost as amazing as mine. LOL.
Overall, things have been going well. Not much bad news to report here.
Well, now that I think about it... I've been having a lot of pain in my ankle and foot (as mentioned up above) and I've been having shooting pains up and down my legs and hips. One of my specialists here says I'm going to have to have some more tests done :( and I'll probably have to go back down to Hospital City sometime in the next few months... I just hope it stops soon. I can't handle pain like this on top of everything else... I think I need another Pain Management session!!!
Well, I guess that's it. I got to see the new James Bond movie last Sunday with the BF, my aunt, and my grandpa. I liked it a lot, except for the fact that the theater was freezing and I had no jacket. Haha.
I'll try to start posting more often. Sorry, again for being gone so long.
More later,
Twinks
PS - I highly reccomned you check out The Sword. Well, the BF does. They're apparently touring with Metallica (which the BF just recently saw in concert) and in his words "They Kick Butt!! They're like a metal/rock version of Stone Temple Pilots." So, there ya go. Your daily dose of music. :)
Thursday, September 25, 2008
"Just reach out your hand and I'll make you mine, Cause everything, everything's magic..."
-Everything's Magic by Angles and Airwaves.
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That's kind of how I've been feeling lately. ^.^ Happy. Loved. Magical in general.
Haha, if you haven't figured it out yet, I've (finally) got a boyfriend. And he's really sweet, and caring, and all that other mushy stuff that you don't wanna hear about.
My best friend E set us up. We actually met at a bowling party a few months ago, but we never got each other's info. Since he lives a few towns away from mine, we'd never get to see each other again...
But, apparently after the party, he kept asking E about me, saying that he couldn't get me off his mind. Ironically enough, I kept asking E about him. Haha, so eventually E gave him my phone number, and we've been inseparable ever since. But he really is a gentleman. Every time we see each other, he doesn't try to "put the moves on me" or anything... He just likes to talk. ^.^ Which I'm fine with. I was kinda anxious about the whole kissing thing, but he says that we should wait. Get to know each other first.
He's in a band, and can play guitar beautifully. And he's been helping me write some new lyrics! **insert girlish squeal here**
I really think mom and dad like him. Well... Mom likes him. Dad will never like any guy I date. But the BF says that his parents really like me, so I'm happy. ^.^
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So, yeah, overall I'm really really really happy. :D
School has been going well. Mom says that in order for us to go out, I have to keep my grades up, so thats been a real motivator for me.
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Everything with my friends is going well. No drama. Nothing exciting. But they all tease me for going out with him. They just think it's so cute that little ol' Twinks finally has her first BF.
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I guess that's it. Well, there's probably more I'll remember after I post this, but my head is too high in the clouds to think of them right now. **happy sigh**
More later,
Twinks
Currently listening to: Over My Head (Cable Car) by The Fray
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That's kind of how I've been feeling lately. ^.^ Happy. Loved. Magical in general.
Haha, if you haven't figured it out yet, I've (finally) got a boyfriend. And he's really sweet, and caring, and all that other mushy stuff that you don't wanna hear about.
My best friend E set us up. We actually met at a bowling party a few months ago, but we never got each other's info. Since he lives a few towns away from mine, we'd never get to see each other again...
But, apparently after the party, he kept asking E about me, saying that he couldn't get me off his mind. Ironically enough, I kept asking E about him. Haha, so eventually E gave him my phone number, and we've been inseparable ever since. But he really is a gentleman. Every time we see each other, he doesn't try to "put the moves on me" or anything... He just likes to talk. ^.^ Which I'm fine with. I was kinda anxious about the whole kissing thing, but he says that we should wait. Get to know each other first.
He's in a band, and can play guitar beautifully. And he's been helping me write some new lyrics! **insert girlish squeal here**
I really think mom and dad like him. Well... Mom likes him. Dad will never like any guy I date. But the BF says that his parents really like me, so I'm happy. ^.^
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So, yeah, overall I'm really really really happy. :D
School has been going well. Mom says that in order for us to go out, I have to keep my grades up, so thats been a real motivator for me.
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Everything with my friends is going well. No drama. Nothing exciting. But they all tease me for going out with him. They just think it's so cute that little ol' Twinks finally has her first BF.
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I guess that's it. Well, there's probably more I'll remember after I post this, but my head is too high in the clouds to think of them right now. **happy sigh**
More later,
Twinks
Currently listening to: Over My Head (Cable Car) by The Fray
Sunday, September 14, 2008
"We're one mistake from being together..."
A lyric from Seventeen Forever, one of Metro Station's singles.
I would just like to point out that I was listening to them WAYYY before they became an MTV band. **sigh** And I had high hopes for them... But then again, even Slipknot has turned into an MTV band....
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Sorry for not posting in a while. I didn't realize how long it had been until I discovered I had been tagged for TWO memes, and I hadn't done either one of them.
But, before we get to the meme(s), I have to catch you all up on whats been going on in my not-so-exciting life.
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School grades in general are OK. Nothing really terrible, but there is room for improvement. I had a few beginning of the year slip-ups. But I know if I work hard and don't fall too far behind, I'll bring everything back up to its normal all-A status.
My social life has been good. Everything has been calm with my friends. (which is really unusual. Normally by now there will have been some big drama within our group of friends.) But I am uber-happy this year because I've made friends with a bunch of upperclassmen. Even Jr's and Sr's!
As for boys in general, things are looking up. Not giving details, but there is a particular guy that I've got my eye on, and he told me that he really likes me too. We met at my best friend's bowling party, and according to her, he told her that he hasn't stopped thinking about me ever since. :-) But, if things don't work out, I've already decided that I'm not gonna be sad or anything. There's no point. I'm only 14. (and a half) I don't really need a boyfriend, I just want one. :-)
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And now, onto the memes.
First, to Sully's dismay, I must do Tam's meme first. I've put it off for far too long.
I actually got tagged by a meme I had already done, but I figured, hey, what the heck. I'm up for it. ^.^
OK, here are the rules (again):
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog. 2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog; some random, some weird. 3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs. 4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
Ok, well I linked to Tam up there, so let's go on to the facts...
1. I've never been to a football game.
In my town, football is our biggest sport. Everyone has been to a home football game... except for me. I'm just not that much into sports, and I've never seen any point in going. According to my friends, they never really end up watching the game. They just pay $5 to hang out and eat pizza. So, yeah, I'm officially a nerd. Or maybe just not a football fan. Either way, I haven't been.
2. I attract nerdy boys.
**shivers** I promise this will be the last mention of boys and relationships in this post. But it's true. For some reason, only nerdy, weird, not-so-hot geek boys like me. I've gotten asked out by 3 nerds just this year. I don't get why hot, muscular, not-wimpy guys can't seem to find me attractive, and yet the whole WOW club wants to date me. And its not even the cute nerds. Its the scary, TRIPP pants wearing, goth-nerds.
3. My favorite band is Papa Roach.
Now, long-time readers probably already know this, but I'm a Papa Roach fan. I have all their CD's, even the cruddy ones. I know the lyrics to all their songs, and I know almost every known fact about the band and its members. Did you know that they named the band after Jacoby Shaddix's (lead singer) grandfather? Did you know that Jacoby has two sons, that are both as cute as buttons? Yeah, I'm their biggest fan. Or almost. I'm not like scary stalker-crazy. But I do love their music. Both old and new. I wish they could play at my sweet 16...
4. I used to have really long hair.
As you all have seen from some recent pics of me, I have a really short haircut. But, it hasn't always been that way. When I was younger (like 5-9 years old) I had really long, straight, boring hair. As I got older I started to cut it shorter. I haven't had long hair since my 9th birthday. I am thinking of growing it out, though. I think it would be nice to have long hair for my prom.
Sorry Tam, but I don't have a 5, a 6, or a 7. I'm out of interesting facts. This just proves that I am NOT an interesting person! I am a boring, average, normal teenager! Ha!
I'm out of people to tag - everyone I know has already done this at least once!
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And now, onto Sully's meme.
Here are the rules:
My Life - The Movie
If you had to select celebrities/actors to play the parts in the story of your life today (including yourself), who would it be and why - this can be based on looks or personality.
1. List the people who would play you, and the key people in your life.
2. Give credit to the person who tagged you.
3. Tag four new people to participate.
Well, I know I would want Ellen Page play me. We have about the same sense of humor, and she looks kinda like me.
For my yet-to-be-named husband (yes, I'm going to have a husband in this movie.) I would totally give the part to Billy Martin, the keyboardist/bassist of Good Charlotte. Not only is he totally cute, he also has a good sense of humor, and he's a vegetarian. Plus he's an amazing songwriter.
For my mom, I'd let Audrey Hepburn play her. She's my mom's favorite actress, plus she's uber pretty, just like my mommy. ^.^
For my dad, I'd probably have Tom Selleck play him. I don't really know why... It just seems to fit.
And for my grandmother... I'd let Julie Andrews play her. I think she could portray her part of the caring, music-loving grandmother quite well.
My friends would probably end up being various people from rock/alternative bands, considering all of us are pretty musical and creative.
[Jacoby Shaddix of Papa Roach]
[Hayley Williams of Paramore]
[Amy Lee of Evanescence]
[Gerard Way of My Chemical Romance]
[Trace Cyrus of Metro Station]
I don't know who to tag for this meme. My mom already told me that she won't do it! So, if you want to, let me know in the comments.
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Well, I guess that's it.
TTYL
-Twinks
Currently listening to: Sound of Madness by Shinedown
I would just like to point out that I was listening to them WAYYY before they became an MTV band. **sigh** And I had high hopes for them... But then again, even Slipknot has turned into an MTV band....
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Sorry for not posting in a while. I didn't realize how long it had been until I discovered I had been tagged for TWO memes, and I hadn't done either one of them.
But, before we get to the meme(s), I have to catch you all up on whats been going on in my not-so-exciting life.
~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~`~
School grades in general are OK. Nothing really terrible, but there is room for improvement. I had a few beginning of the year slip-ups. But I know if I work hard and don't fall too far behind, I'll bring everything back up to its normal all-A status.
My social life has been good. Everything has been calm with my friends. (which is really unusual. Normally by now there will have been some big drama within our group of friends.) But I am uber-happy this year because I've made friends with a bunch of upperclassmen. Even Jr's and Sr's!
As for boys in general, things are looking up. Not giving details, but there is a particular guy that I've got my eye on, and he told me that he really likes me too. We met at my best friend's bowling party, and according to her, he told her that he hasn't stopped thinking about me ever since. :-) But, if things don't work out, I've already decided that I'm not gonna be sad or anything. There's no point. I'm only 14. (and a half) I don't really need a boyfriend, I just want one. :-)
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And now, onto the memes.
First, to Sully's dismay, I must do Tam's meme first. I've put it off for far too long.
I actually got tagged by a meme I had already done, but I figured, hey, what the heck. I'm up for it. ^.^
OK, here are the rules (again):
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog. 2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog; some random, some weird. 3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs. 4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
Ok, well I linked to Tam up there, so let's go on to the facts...
1. I've never been to a football game.
In my town, football is our biggest sport. Everyone has been to a home football game... except for me. I'm just not that much into sports, and I've never seen any point in going. According to my friends, they never really end up watching the game. They just pay $5 to hang out and eat pizza. So, yeah, I'm officially a nerd. Or maybe just not a football fan. Either way, I haven't been.
2. I attract nerdy boys.
**shivers** I promise this will be the last mention of boys and relationships in this post. But it's true. For some reason, only nerdy, weird, not-so-hot geek boys like me. I've gotten asked out by 3 nerds just this year. I don't get why hot, muscular, not-wimpy guys can't seem to find me attractive, and yet the whole WOW club wants to date me. And its not even the cute nerds. Its the scary, TRIPP pants wearing, goth-nerds.
3. My favorite band is Papa Roach.
Now, long-time readers probably already know this, but I'm a Papa Roach fan. I have all their CD's, even the cruddy ones. I know the lyrics to all their songs, and I know almost every known fact about the band and its members. Did you know that they named the band after Jacoby Shaddix's (lead singer) grandfather? Did you know that Jacoby has two sons, that are both as cute as buttons? Yeah, I'm their biggest fan. Or almost. I'm not like scary stalker-crazy. But I do love their music. Both old and new. I wish they could play at my sweet 16...
4. I used to have really long hair.
As you all have seen from some recent pics of me, I have a really short haircut. But, it hasn't always been that way. When I was younger (like 5-9 years old) I had really long, straight, boring hair. As I got older I started to cut it shorter. I haven't had long hair since my 9th birthday. I am thinking of growing it out, though. I think it would be nice to have long hair for my prom.
Sorry Tam, but I don't have a 5, a 6, or a 7. I'm out of interesting facts. This just proves that I am NOT an interesting person! I am a boring, average, normal teenager! Ha!
I'm out of people to tag - everyone I know has already done this at least once!
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And now, onto Sully's meme.
Here are the rules:
My Life - The Movie
If you had to select celebrities/actors to play the parts in the story of your life today (including yourself), who would it be and why - this can be based on looks or personality.
1. List the people who would play you, and the key people in your life.
2. Give credit to the person who tagged you.
3. Tag four new people to participate.
Well, I know I would want Ellen Page play me. We have about the same sense of humor, and she looks kinda like me.
For my yet-to-be-named husband (yes, I'm going to have a husband in this movie.) I would totally give the part to Billy Martin, the keyboardist/bassist of Good Charlotte. Not only is he totally cute, he also has a good sense of humor, and he's a vegetarian. Plus he's an amazing songwriter.
For my mom, I'd let Audrey Hepburn play her. She's my mom's favorite actress, plus she's uber pretty, just like my mommy. ^.^
For my dad, I'd probably have Tom Selleck play him. I don't really know why... It just seems to fit.
And for my grandmother... I'd let Julie Andrews play her. I think she could portray her part of the caring, music-loving grandmother quite well.
My friends would probably end up being various people from rock/alternative bands, considering all of us are pretty musical and creative.
[Jacoby Shaddix of Papa Roach]
[Hayley Williams of Paramore]
[Amy Lee of Evanescence]
[Gerard Way of My Chemical Romance]
[Trace Cyrus of Metro Station]
I don't know who to tag for this meme. My mom already told me that she won't do it! So, if you want to, let me know in the comments.
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Well, I guess that's it.
TTYL
-Twinks
Currently listening to: Sound of Madness by Shinedown
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
"Wanna see a magic trick? I'll make this pencil... disappear!" - The Joker
Haha, no real reason for my post title. I just love that part of the Dark Knight. I've seen the movie like 5 times now. XP
Anyway, I got finished with my homework early (which is surprising, since I had math, English, French, geography, and science to do tonight) so I figured I should write a post.
So much has happened in the past few days, that I don't even know where to start.
Well, I guess the most eventful (and ironic) news was that a mere 2 days after I had posted about not having a boyfriend, one of my best guy friends asked me out. Now, I was honest-to-gosh ecstatic... But, I said no.
Why, you may ask? Because I didn't want to just say yes to anyone willy-nilly without talking to my mom and dad about it first. Unlike a lot of my friends, I actually care about my parents opinions. So, I talked to my mom about it a few days ago, and she said that she would have been fine with me and him going out on group dates, like just to the movies. So, this morning I went to school thinking that me and him could talk again about going out... But, I found out this morning that he's gone back to his ex-girlfriend. His ex, who has dumped him FIVE times. (I've counted, believe me) I just don't understand how he can go out with someone who has hurt him so much...(And she is one of my best friends...) So yeah, I'm just kind of upset about that. I just don't want to see him get hurt again. Even if I don't ever go out with him, I still don't like to see my best buddies get hurt. :-(
Well, on a happier note, school is going quite well. I've been getting good grades on my papers, and I seem to be getting back into the groove of things quite nicely. ^.^
Today was picture day. Ick. I like picture day, I just hate it when the girls look like they're all dressed up for prom. You only end up seeing your FACE in the picture anyway... shouldn't you be more worried about makeup and hair then your clothes?? I just don't get it...
I guess that's it. Not much going on at home. :-/
And with that, I leave you with an inspiring workout video from the 80's...
-Twinks
Currently listening to: Get Out Alive by Three Days Grace
Anyway, I got finished with my homework early (which is surprising, since I had math, English, French, geography, and science to do tonight) so I figured I should write a post.
So much has happened in the past few days, that I don't even know where to start.
Well, I guess the most eventful (and ironic) news was that a mere 2 days after I had posted about not having a boyfriend, one of my best guy friends asked me out. Now, I was honest-to-gosh ecstatic... But, I said no.
Why, you may ask? Because I didn't want to just say yes to anyone willy-nilly without talking to my mom and dad about it first. Unlike a lot of my friends, I actually care about my parents opinions. So, I talked to my mom about it a few days ago, and she said that she would have been fine with me and him going out on group dates, like just to the movies. So, this morning I went to school thinking that me and him could talk again about going out... But, I found out this morning that he's gone back to his ex-girlfriend. His ex, who has dumped him FIVE times. (I've counted, believe me) I just don't understand how he can go out with someone who has hurt him so much...(And she is one of my best friends...) So yeah, I'm just kind of upset about that. I just don't want to see him get hurt again. Even if I don't ever go out with him, I still don't like to see my best buddies get hurt. :-(
Well, on a happier note, school is going quite well. I've been getting good grades on my papers, and I seem to be getting back into the groove of things quite nicely. ^.^
Today was picture day. Ick. I like picture day, I just hate it when the girls look like they're all dressed up for prom. You only end up seeing your FACE in the picture anyway... shouldn't you be more worried about makeup and hair then your clothes?? I just don't get it...
I guess that's it. Not much going on at home. :-/
And with that, I leave you with an inspiring workout video from the 80's...
-Twinks
Currently listening to: Get Out Alive by Three Days Grace
A meme!! Yay!
Haha, now I'm all excited. I don't get tagged that much for memes because I'm only a kid. But I got tagged by Melinda!! Yay!
Ok, so here are the rules I must follow:
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog; some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
Okie dokie, lets get started.
1. I'm a sucker for 80's movies.
Yeah, it's true. You name any teen movie from the 80's and I've probably seen it. Like, 5 times. Breakfast Club, Pretty in Pink, 16 Candles, Can't Buy Me Love, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, etc. I even have 2 Breakfast Club posters on the wall in my room.
2. The popular kids love my clothes.
Yep yep. In my school, I'm pretty much at the bottom of the food chain, popularity wise. So, when one of the most popular girls in school compliments you on your style, its a big deal. Now, I'm not saying that I want to be popular, or that I care how popular I am. I just thought it was pretty darn funny when the most popular girl in school tried copying my style. I'm like the only girl in my whole school that wears neon florescent colors. (Or as my friends like to call it, "Scene" which is apparently like "Emo" but with more colors and happiness. I hate labels... I'm confused...)
3. I love to read.
I do love to read. But at my school, we have this stupid system that forces us to read, which takes all the fun out of it. I guess that's why I never really posted about it before...
4. I still listen to the Backstreet Boys.
Haha, sad but true. I guess because I grew up with them as a little girl, they're kind of ingrained into my brain. I can still dance to NSYNC too. Lol.
5. I've driven coast to coast.
Long story short, my aunt passed away, and we had to drive from the east coast to the west coast one summer. It was fun. I saw the mountains, the valleys, the deserts, and everything in between.
6. I've never been on a roller coaster.
We used to have an amusement park within 30 minutes of my tiny town a few years ago, so naturally, many of my friends went to it. I've never been a fan of heights (yet I still love flying. Weird, huh?) and things that make me puke, so naturally, roller coasters were just never my thing. I still to this day have never been on one. It's kind of one of my goals in life. Ride one roller coaster before I die.
7. I had a crush on Proto Zoa.
Many of you won't know who Proto Zoa is. I don't blame you. He was the hearthrob stellar singer from the "Zenon" movies. They ran on disney channel when I was like 5 years old. And I just thought he was the hottest thing since salsa. Lol, I think he was my first crush, ever. Anyway, the man behind Proto Zoa was actually Phillip Rhys.
If you watch the vid, hes the guy with the frosted tips. Yeah, I liked a guy with frosted tips. I can't even believe it myself. I was such a little nerd.
Well, I guess it's time to link to seven people:
Mom, of course.
Flip
Magazine Man
Art Lad
Rurality
Ciara
and Chuck
I don't have a seventh person to do the meme, so it's up for grabs if anyone wants it. Just leave me a comment and let me know so I can update my post.
Thanks guys. ^.^
Ok, so I guess it's time for me to go and post those comments!!
TTYL.
-Twinks
Currently listening to: Kelsey by Metro Station
Ok, so here are the rules I must follow:
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog; some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
Okie dokie, lets get started.
1. I'm a sucker for 80's movies.
Yeah, it's true. You name any teen movie from the 80's and I've probably seen it. Like, 5 times. Breakfast Club, Pretty in Pink, 16 Candles, Can't Buy Me Love, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, etc. I even have 2 Breakfast Club posters on the wall in my room.
2. The popular kids love my clothes.
Yep yep. In my school, I'm pretty much at the bottom of the food chain, popularity wise. So, when one of the most popular girls in school compliments you on your style, its a big deal. Now, I'm not saying that I want to be popular, or that I care how popular I am. I just thought it was pretty darn funny when the most popular girl in school tried copying my style. I'm like the only girl in my whole school that wears neon florescent colors. (Or as my friends like to call it, "Scene" which is apparently like "Emo" but with more colors and happiness. I hate labels... I'm confused...)
3. I love to read.
I do love to read. But at my school, we have this stupid system that forces us to read, which takes all the fun out of it. I guess that's why I never really posted about it before...
4. I still listen to the Backstreet Boys.
Haha, sad but true. I guess because I grew up with them as a little girl, they're kind of ingrained into my brain. I can still dance to NSYNC too. Lol.
5. I've driven coast to coast.
Long story short, my aunt passed away, and we had to drive from the east coast to the west coast one summer. It was fun. I saw the mountains, the valleys, the deserts, and everything in between.
6. I've never been on a roller coaster.
We used to have an amusement park within 30 minutes of my tiny town a few years ago, so naturally, many of my friends went to it. I've never been a fan of heights (yet I still love flying. Weird, huh?) and things that make me puke, so naturally, roller coasters were just never my thing. I still to this day have never been on one. It's kind of one of my goals in life. Ride one roller coaster before I die.
7. I had a crush on Proto Zoa.
Many of you won't know who Proto Zoa is. I don't blame you. He was the hearthrob stellar singer from the "Zenon" movies. They ran on disney channel when I was like 5 years old. And I just thought he was the hottest thing since salsa. Lol, I think he was my first crush, ever. Anyway, the man behind Proto Zoa was actually Phillip Rhys.
If you watch the vid, hes the guy with the frosted tips. Yeah, I liked a guy with frosted tips. I can't even believe it myself. I was such a little nerd.
Well, I guess it's time to link to seven people:
Mom, of course.
Flip
Magazine Man
Art Lad
Rurality
Ciara
and Chuck
I don't have a seventh person to do the meme, so it's up for grabs if anyone wants it. Just leave me a comment and let me know so I can update my post.
Thanks guys. ^.^
Ok, so I guess it's time for me to go and post those comments!!
TTYL.
-Twinks
Currently listening to: Kelsey by Metro Station
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